Fearless Love: Getting Out of the Way of Intimacy

December 14, 2014

W10850153_744121482330740_461205275044707044_ne all want intimacy… deep, honest, juicy, grounded, courageous connection with another human being. Perhaps we crave intimacy so deeply because it’s actually the most natural state for us to be in… safe, connected, unguarded, and fully alive. When we meditate, we remember that intimacy is what’s here when we STOP doing everything else. It’s not that it takes great effort. But most of us spend so much time distracted from real intimacy by our busy minds – filled with story, drama, projection, expectation, self-consciousness, and reference to future/past – that we are not available for real connection. In fact, for most of us, our primary relationship is actually with the conditioned mind, and that relationship is a full-time job.

What if intimacy was as simple as seeing through some of the ways we get caught in the conditioned mind when it comes to relating – and learning to get out of our own way?

1. Fearless Love Begins With Loving Ourselves Fearlessly…The Pretty and The Not-So-Pretty

To love fearlessly is a revolutionary act. It requires us to relax into self-acceptance over constant self-improvement.  We spend so much time seeing ourselves through eyes of judgment, looking at what could be fixed or improved, afraid we might not measure up. We reward ourselves when we “make the grade” and berate ourselves when we don’t. All this needless activity keeps us busy and feeds the underlying myth that love is conditional… that parts of us are lovable and parts are not. Intimacy begins with our willingness to erase this myth and see through the eyes of love. We have to learn how to ‘be with” the pretty and not-so-pretty parts of ourselves without needing to do, fix, or change anything. Fearless love asks us to stop striving, let down our guard, and find out what is possible between two human beings. This begins by seeing ourselves through eyes of love.

2. Not Turning Away

It sounds easy enough, but if you’ve ever been in a relationship (or if you’ve ever just sat down on a meditation cushion) you know that when the messy stuff arises, a part of us wants to scream “Never mind, I’m out of here!” Most of us have habitual escape routes in place in our lives so that we can take the exit door whenever ego feels threatened. Fearless love requires a commitment to fearing less. It asks us to stay with both the expansions and contractions of love. This is how we learn to see fear for what it is and access authentic courage. Intimacy is not just about physical and emotional attraction. It is an opportunity to co-create a powerful container for shadows and past traumas to arise, to be healed. If we are willing to have the kind of relationship where we don’t have the back door open, where we can see the desire to escape as resistance to growth, we are well-positioned for success. We’re not just talking about healing here…We’re talking about letting our separate self dissolve to become participants in something much bigger and more magical… the shared field and mystery of love between two human beings. Isn’t this what we are made for?

3. Deep Listening Means Listening With Our Whole Body

We spend a LOT of time listening to our conditioned mind…me and my needs, my limiting stories, my little bubble….and may only come out from this bubble from time to time for real connection. There is nothing wrong with this, but it limits our capacity for authentic connection. The practice of deep listening is a beautiful and fierce way to dissolve this bubble. The listener has no agenda other than receptive listening… not trying to fix or change anything or even “help” the other, but allowing our beloved to feel seen and heard. Deep listening invites us to listen with every cell in our body. For the record, it doesn’t work if we are always the listener or always the one who listens. We have to be willing to take turns being open, vulnerable, seen, and supported… and being the non-judgmental witness. Deep listening teaches us how to create a solid container for intimacy – with our lover and with ourselves.

4. Risking It

Transparency is the art of belonging… to ourselves, to each other, to our world….right here, right now, exactly as we are. Reclaiming intimacy has everything to do with the willingness to be transparent with one another…to share ourselves with one another as we are, no more, no less, no shield needed, nowhere to hide. Consider that the mind of separation continually finds ways to makes us feel self-conscious, isolated, and other than. We live in a world with so many messages about what’s acceptable and what’s not. Every time we allow ourselves to be authentic and vulnerable with one another, the illusion of separation burns away. Transparency asks us to stop role playing (the good girlfriend, the hot lover, the strong man) and risk being ourselves.

5. Play

Fearless love is about allowing our shadows to be illuminated and trusting the healing process… but it’s vital that we don’t become process zombies. We’ve got to nourish ourselves with plenty of play, lightness, laughter, touch, passion, and adventure.  It is always to approach a spiritual journey with great sincerity over seriousness. If we can see the whole intimacy experience as a process of discovery, we can stay connected with the innocent, curious, child-like, explorer in us rather than the agenda-filled, serious adult, to get in the way.

A Personal story…

I first went out with my beloved after attending his conscious dance class, not as a date but as a “getting to know you.” He began telling me how unsatisfying the dating world had been. “I wish I could go on a first date,” he said, “and just name all of my faults, shortcomings, and limitations up front, so it was all out there and there was no fear.” I caught the cue and asked, “And what would you list? I’d like to hear.” And as he openly listed his self-perceived shortcomings and quirks, I softened, relaxed, and thought, “Wow, here’s a man who knows what real power is… vulnerability. Here’s a man who is not afraid to be honest. Here’s a man I could really love and bare myself with.” My heart melted, one thing led to the next,….and a soft, deep, sweet, passionate, radically honest partnership began.

As you digest this blog post, I encourage you to consider the ways you are living your life in the spirit of fearless loving… and the ways you get pulled away from intimacy by your conditioned mind. How might you support yourself in getting out of the way of intimacy?

Offered in Lovingkindness,

Deborah Eden Tull

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